All of sudden you are a pair and now you are not. When I became a divorced mom and single again. Never thought I would ever meet anyone like my first husband. He broke my heart and trust in men. It's a difficult step in the process of one's life. Men think that you're lonely and all I could think about was worrying about being able to survive and raising my son without negative judgement.
I came to St.Louis for a wedding and met my prince charming . I live in Florida and He in Missouri. We met once a month one each other's home. And fell in lust and love. He was 13 years older, a lawyer (first husband was a lawyer) and had two boys. I had a 3 year old son. Could we make it work. I met him in June and Married him in January. It was magic. It was hectic. It was very trying. It was a change. It was new. It was a huge move. It was stress. But it was the best choice. Raising my son in this hometown community.Never having to move again (except from a townhouse to a house). Keith had new brothers, new aunts and uncles, cousins and friends that he still has. I have lifetime friends .
When after 32 years became a widow. It was depressing. Feeling lost. And learning how to really survive.
Dating is not for me. I seem to like my dog better than my past dates. The other night I went to a wedding reception by myself. It was tough going and leaving but I did it. Do I like being single not really but than again it's the first time in my entire life that I am living alone(except for my dog) . No meals to cook unless I am having company. I do cook for Charlie my dog. I hate cleaning and at times it shows. But I have been running my household by myself. I miss decisions working with a companion. But I plan to make it. When I was divorced I cried a lot and wondered what had I done wrong. My mom Lee was strong woman and she told me you have a son to raise and you can do this. Depend on only you and you will survive. You have no choice you need to stand and do it. And you never did anything wrong. So for women are afraid to face it. You are going to make it. You learn to barter ( I did for babysitting) but that's another chapter.
Harmony is where I am going to achieve!!!
